Sweetness of Jesus

I wanted to make another blog just to share some things that the Lord really placed in my heart this week. Like I said in the previous blog, I have really begun to have a desire to walk in a constant state of prayer with Jesus and have literally seen a difference when I am actually walking with the Holy Spirit in that.

On Thursday morning I had a wonderful coffee date with my new friend Britany here, who is in Phase 3 Fire & Fragrance on campus. We had planned for 630am. I decided to get up at 5am for some odd reason. Going to bed, I prayed that the Lord would just give me energy and that the Holy Spirit would wake me up. So 440am and I wake up, wide awake. I remember the prayer I had prayed, and instantly I smiled and began to think about the scripture "Ask and you shall receive". I wasn't that worried about Him not waking me up because I had an alarm... I didn't beg, I just asked, believed, and then received. That alone was so wonderful.

The next hour and a half I had alone, I wasn't sitting in the prayer room, I wasn't like trying to focus on praying... But the Holy Spirit was with me the whole time. The sweetness of His spirit was so thick. I could literally feel him all around me. I took my time getting ready, and the longer I was awake in the silence of the early morning, the better I began to feel, the peace in my spirit began to grow, and my heart was becoming one with the Father more and more every second. He loves to be near to me. I didn't have to do anything - I was just open to receive... and He loves to give.

So coffee comes around, and if I were to sum it up in just a couple sentences... I'd have to say 1) The Holy Spirit was having so much fun Britany and I and our spirits inside began to enjoy the Holy Spirit together and 2) My heart took a trip home. Coming from a place like the Farm (A Place For The Heart), you learn to speak this certain language. I had never realized how rare and precious of a jewel it was until I was taken out of that atmosphere and put into something different. Not a bad different, just different. I love YWAM, and I have grown so deep in Truth and Spirit with the Father in this time and I have roots here now that could never be anywhere else. But what I took away from the farm was intimacy with each person of the Trinity. A language of being still, waiting, lavishing, living out extravagant lives... and that is something that will never be replaced - it is a home inside of my heart that I know the Lord loves to be in.

I met Britany in the prayer room. I was waring in the spirit, and she was writing in her journal right next to me. She came up to me afterwards and immediately my spirit inside came alive. There was something different about her than anybody else I had met here on campus. She spoke my language. She encouraged me... spoke that I was an evangelist, and that I was a Giant in the Spirit. We had planned to have coffee but it didn't work for a couple weeks. So we finally set a date. Sitting there, like I said before, it was like going home. I told her all about the farm and the Holy Spirit just came over her and she started crying by the beauty of it, and told me she had never heard of a ministry that focused so much on the sweetness of Jesus and just waiting on His presence, and really taking time for beauty and poetry and the HEART of people... not just what we are called to, but who we ARE and pulling that out. It made me realize and remember what the Lord had done in me, and again it awoke something else in side of me. We sat then for an hour and a half and just really enjoyed each others company. It was sweet, thats all I can describe. You know when you first fall in love with Jesus, or you have a new revelation and suddenly everything is like 10x's more beautiful? It's like everything is edited... it's more bold, more colorful, more fresh? Thats what this hour and a half was like. It was like finding a beautiful tree that was blowing in the slight breeze and you're able to just sit under it for hours, or finding a new field you can go and frolic in, or having a beautiful journal you just can't wait to pour your heart out in... It was amazing.
While sitting there, Britany felt like she was suppose to read this poem over me. After taking it out she realized that it was the poem she was writing two seconds before she met me. Right before we wrote the poem she asked the Lord to send her girls that spoke her language and she could disciple and walk with. She wrote this poem, and then she met me. It was truly set up by God - I love when He is so intentional (which is all the time). The poem had a picture of a big tree with a bird on the right side - and it was about flying and a dove. Just the picture and title blew me away and I was hit with the Holy Spirit, haha. Trees & Doves & Flying are 3 things that the Lord has spoken to me about over the past 2 or so years of my life, and visions of Doves flying keep reoccurring. At the moment I don't have the poem so I can't share it right now. But I just wanted to tell you this short hour and a half encounter with Jesus through a friend.

Through this the realization that I carry the Lord in my heart wherever I go became so extremely real to me. What I experienced growing up at the farm is not something I just can experience there. It is a language in the heart of the Lord that I can constantly walk in. I don't have to be at one place in order to encounters Jesus' sweetness, I carry that inside of me. I have the ability then to pour that language out on other people... and it is contagious. Because people thirst for Jesus even when they don't believe in Him. And it is such an honor to be able to give that to people. Love God. Love Others. It's that simple.

After our coffee date, I had such a joy. I couldn't help but poor it out. I was able to really encourage a girlfriend here who is going through just a dull season, I was able to pour out living water into her heart because I had just been poured into. It reminds me of the power of remembering. We have to remember where we came from and what the Lord has done in us - how much He has redeemed us. The reality & power of our past experiences are going to fade in our life... we move on and we don't mean to, but we forget. When we are not feeding of the Word and really spending time with the Lord on a daily basis, it fades even more and we grow weary. But when we choose to remember what God has done, when we choose to go to Him for our daily bread... It's like jumping in a refreshing stream after a hard days work. You don't care what it looks like to other people, you are just so excited to be renewed and you feel like you've just been brought to life again.

Having coffee with Britany was really like meeting with Jesus. Her heart is so hungry and thirsty for Him, she doesn't care what it looks like, she just wants more of Jesus. When friendships are made like this, nothing can replace them and you really experience the heart of Jesus in a new way, and He loves it. He loves our hunger, He loves our thirst, He loves our desire to know Him more. He isn't a pushy God, He isn't an angry God... He is a jealous God for MY heart. and I love that.

Through this, I have made Psalm 45 something I read everyday. It is so beautiful. I encourage you to read it, and really let it soak into your spirit.

I want to encourage you. Have hope. God knows what we are going through. He knows our ins and outs, even the parts we are scared to look at. He loves us through it all, and He loves to lavish us. We are His children and He is SO pleased with us. We don't have to do anything but just receive the love He desires to pour out on us, and in that we truly learn to live life out as beautifully as it was created to be lived. Jesus loves you. He loves you so much. He has so many presents He is longing for you to open. Just be open to what He has for you and you will be blown away by the Love of a God who sent His son for YOU to be in constant communion with Him. Don't be afraid, just step out and Trust. He is waiting to take your hand.