...End of 3 Months... Beginning of 3 Months...

My body lays here together... My spirit a mix of joy and sadness... Joy for what's to come, Sadness for whats to be left behind. This room... Oh the memories. Nights of crying with my 7 wonderful room mates, nights of laughing so hard I peed my pants (HA), days of frustration and agitation... Praying together, building each other up, becoming best friends with 3 girls on my room. I look around and I feel like I can physically see the way things played out. Late late nights, freakin' early mornings. Now here I am... I am the last one to be sent off. It's empty. Every bed, where there once was life... are empty - mattresses with past memories. It's clean, for the first time EVER, haha. And it's quiet. A good quiet that can make me think and be alone for the 2nd time in 3 months - but a sad quiet filled with the noises of the past, of friendships being cultivated and of Holy Spirit invading.
What a strange transition this is. I can feel the physical heaviness of my heart. I say hello to people, wonder how it'll ever work. I get super close to them, inviting them in and sharing this wonderful life together. And then we say goodbye - knowing we will eventually see each other again and be able to share amazing stories and love with one another... It is definitely bitter sweet. I can't imagine what God felt like when He was giving His son, first to earth and then to death. How must He have felt when people persecuted Him? I honestly can't even imagine the intense hurt Abba had felt... Looking at just my friends, the reality of bad things happening to them and having to give them up really is an overwhelming feeling. It makes me draw close to Papa even more...

3 Months... Wow... So much learned, so many experiences, so many adventures, so much intimacy and discipline... I am glad for how things went, but I am hungry for more... And I have no doubt that outreach is going to be insane.
I was telling a couple of my friends today as I was saying goodbye, that every time I try to think about what outreach will be like or what the Lord is going to do - I can't. There is this wall that shoots up that literally I can't even think about it. I fully believe that is the Lord, and the fact that I cannot comprehend what He is going to do. That even if I made something up, it wouldn't be close to how much He is going to wreck us with His Holy Spirit and Love. The blind will see, the dead will rise, the deaf will hear, the lame will walk, broken hearts restored, generational curses broken off, children of God experience LOVE for the first time... I believe this. My faith is strong. I am sure that the Lord is going to do things even crazier than this on this outreach. My spirit is so stirred, so ready for what He has. I know that this is all before I am there and get hit with some reality stuff and culture shock... but I speak this in faith, and I will read over this and remember what the Lord has placed inside of my heart from His... and I will choose to believe again and again and again that this is the desire of the Lord... to show LOVE to His children who are so thirsty for this very thing.
I want to end this 3 month Lecture Phase, by really thanking you. Not just saying "oh thanks"... but truly, I am full of gratefulness. I have been blessed to have you be a part of this journey with me. REALLY... Without YOUR support, without your prayers, without your contributions, without your encouragements and everything else... I honestly would not have been able to do this. God has blessed me to have you in my life, and to have you experience this in some ways with me. Even if you aren't here, or you aren't doing YWAM or can't go out on the mission field - you have been a part of the Kingdoms work, you have honored the voice of the Lord and obeyed His calling to support me in any way that you have - and I really really really am thankful for that. God has shown me more than ever before His faithfulness to me, His amazing Grace, That Intimacy with Jesus is important above all else, and that He NEVER forgets His promises and always fulfills them. His ways are not our ways and Everything is beautiful in its time - these are the words that I have remembered so much lately. When we choose to let Him take control - we have nothing to worry about. I have only begun to do that in a very very very small way - and all ready my heart is being wrecked by His love for me. You have been a part of these revelations, THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. I am forever thankful.

So here we go. Tomorrow morning at 5am I will head to the airport. I will go to Honolulu for 2 hours. Then over to Japan for 5 hours (we will be going out in the city). After that to Singapore for 8 hours. And then to Channai India. From there we will either take a 4 hour train ride or a 13 hour bus ride to Dharmapuri... This will be Sunday - arriving at our destination.

If you will still continue to pray for our team. Safety and provision and just grace over each one of us as we journey into a new season with Abba.
If you want to give any of us a physical prayer or encouragement to read, please feel free to do so! I have made an email, so you can write any one of us or all of us. The email is photogenxIndia2010@gmail.com .
On our team we have Jessica, Scott & Jaylene as leaders. Then we have Zach, Laura, Jessica, Jason, Nate, Lindsay, Erika, Me, Kelsey, Hannah, Tiffany, Kat, Sharon, Kailyn, Basma, Dawn, & Chrissy. Thank you so much for your prayers!!

I will be trying to update you as much as possible but I don't know how much internet we will have access to.

May Jesus bless you SO much. May you be filled with love and life. May you travel deeper into the heart of your Abba Father and respond to His invitation to hide your heart inside of His and be transformed.
I love you all so much.


-Psalm 2:8 "Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession."
-Genesis 28:15 "I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."